Procrastinating

P-p-procrastinating.

I just procrastinated so much that when I had almost ran out of things to procrastinate (eat a slice of pizza, listen to smashing pumpkins, read other blogs) I googled procrastinate, to make sure I was spelling it right, and then read the wikipedia page on it.

I procrastinated writing this blog, because afterwards I have to go to bed, which means it'll be no time till I wake up and go to work, where I'll be handing in my notice. And that, is what this is all about. I'm very nervous about it.

I've been meaning to quit my job for a while, because its rubbish and I'm only there temporary and I don't get a decent amount of hours. Also because I'm going to my cousins wedding in two weeks and end of the road festival at the end of the month, and I'd never get the time off for them.

I mentioned before that I was applying to a casino, well the group interview was actually a lot of fun and I really enjoyed it. I came away actually really wanting the job (before I went to the interview, I was totally unsure). They said we'd hear back in a week, or maybe a little more. So I waited and waited and didn't hear anything. Then on Monday I got a call, as far as I can gather its only a call back, and I'm having a one to one interview next week. Which is good news for me.

Even if I don't get the casino gig, it will be my excuse out of there. I'm planning on telling them that I applied ages ago and didn't think I would hear back from them, and have been offered the job, hence handing in my weeks notice. The reason I'm worrying so much about it is because my boss had a bit of a chat with me last week, and basically she booked me in two weeks holidays in September and upped my hours to 16 from my official 8, because of some boring reasons you don't want to read about. At this point I knew I wouldn't be staying that long, but hadn't figured out the details so my tiny mind just thought "yeah ok just go along with her for now".

So I'm worried I'll look like a bit of a dodgy character and she'll think "why did she let me give her more hours and holidays when she's leaving". This is where my "Just been offered a job" lie comes in, hopefully it'll just look like I only just found out about it.

I'm also worried because the rotas are already up for the next 2 weeks and I had been down for 20 hours to cover 2 people who are on holiday. Urgh I'm just stressing about it. I'm going to be nervous as hell tomorrow.

My coping mechanism, with things like this, anything thats worrying me or that i'm not looking forward to, is to just think "this time tomorrow/next week/mont, it'll all be over with"

Which does help a little bit!

I'm currently having a hot flush, I don't know if its cause I'm bugging out, or because the pizza I just ate had jalapenos on, or maybe because its just a fucking humid night.

Anyway, god, what a boring blog post, sorry! Needed to get it all out y'know.

Better stuff next time,

wish me luck, T'rah!