On Sunday me and my auntie and my mam went for a bit of a drive, "to give the car a run" was the reason. Occasionally my auntie says that, and we go out. We went to Northallerton and had Sunday dinner in a pub, it was very delicious, cept they only gave us one gravy boat between 3 Sunday dinners, and when my mam went and politely asked for more, the dim girl at the bar was all "ohh I dunno if you have to pay for more..." So my mam got all British, and said we shouldn't have to, cause they should have gave us adequate gravy. In the end we never got extra gravy. And the cokes we ordered were the most watered down coke I have ever had the misfortune to drink, which was especially disappointing because it looked so good, and I was so thirsty, and I so was looking forward to a nice glug of ice cold fizzy vegetable extract, or whatever its made from. Anyway, this pub, I've forgotten what it was called, but its the tiny poky one, opposite, sort of hidden behind the town hall building, next to oxfam. If anyone reading this goes to Northallerton, I would recommend avoiding it. (it was smelly as well, as if they'd had a flood. And also it was full of kids...urgh)
What am I on about, anyway, despite all that being rather negative, what was going to say was, I had a really ace time just sitting in the back of the car on the way there and back. I remembered to take my earphones, but I only had about 30 songs on my phone which got a bit annoying when ever I got excited about a song I wanted to listen to, only to remember I didn't have it on anymore. This is cause a couple of months ago I had a small fit of frustration about songs on my phone, I wanted to free up some space so I could add some more (my phone only holds around 100-ish songs and I don't have an MP3 player) In the end, I couldn't be arsed deleting and picking and sorting, so I just thought fuck it, and deleted the whole lot. Which was very liberating. But yeah, I guess since finishing work, and being only a 5 minute walk away from the town, I don't really have much use for listening to songs on my phone anymore, and put off putting new songs and stuff on. Hence the only having about 30 on now.
The only songs I had to listen to on Sunday were a few Killers, Modest Mouse and Arcade Fire songs. But I really got into it, you know sometimes you get in exactly the right mood to do certain things? It all just fitted, I was in my own little world sat cross legged in the back of the car.
Also listening to Regine Chassagne singing "In the backseat" (a perfect song for the situation if ever there was one) made me remember why I love her so much, I honestly have such a girlcrush on her, she's just such an ace lady. She secretly learned to sing, play piano, guitar, accordion, mandolin, flute, drums, and harmonica while her parents weren't watching. How amazing is that? She plays hurdy-gurdy too, I think it was Regine that got me interested in that in fact, I think hurdys are cool. Also she's got the whole french thing going on as well which I am a total sucker for. And she's married to Win Butler, which can't be all bad.
In the backseat is ace, and Regine is sneaky! At the start she's got this dead light sing-song voice, and it sounds so fragile, and then halfway through the song, BOOM, "ahhhh ooooo-oooh" and her voice really just comes through and its so strong and beautiful and she's singing her little heart out. I fucking love her.
Ahhh. Anyway, like I said, the car journey home was dead nice, I was warm, and comfy, and it was just one of those moments you occasionally get when you just get to stop and think, and you just realise, I'm really really happy right at this exact moment.
Righty, enough of that stuff. I could probably have compressed all that into a few sentences, but I just can't help rambling. It comes into my mind and I've gotta write it down.
It just passed midnight, this means its now Wednesday. This week is going fast, and I seem to have things to fill it up with which is nice and a pleasant change I guess.
Tomorrow (I mean today) I have to go to the dentist in the morning, I have to get a root filling which I am NOT looking forward to. I can handle getting needles injected into my gums, Its just the way she leaves in it so long, I mean I know she must have to, to evenly distribute the anaesthetic or whatever. It just feels unnatural having a needle inside for so long, it makes me feel unnerved. It should just be in and out. But its better than being able to feel the drill drilling into my teeth. Then an hour and forty minutes later, I have a job interview. I hope I don't drool all over the person/people interviewing me. Drool OR bleed. I'm sure I'll be fine though. I don't feel nervous about it at all, not yet anyway, maybe dentist worries are overriding it for now. I'm kind of excited about it actually though, I've planned what I'm gonna wear and I'm sort of looking forward to it. I suppose it sort of works out perfectly, having the dentist first, I can ponder my interview questions and answers while I'm being poked in the mouth, it'll take my mind off it.
Alright, in other news, I don't think I really have any other news. Its my mams birthday on Friday. And I just realised I don't know how old she is going to be. Last week I had a dream that it was my mams birthday the next day, and I had totally forgot and was getting dead stressed over it. Then I woke up and was like "phew, thank god it was just a drea.. OH crap, it is my mams birthday soon!" SO that was a pretty good reminder really, thanks brain! Now I just have the boring lumbering and difficult job of buying a present. Does anyone have any ideas? I always buy chocolates or earrings, I don't think I can afford perfume. I might get flowers, that might be nice. Umm yeah. Its a good little group of this towards the end of this week, Valentines has rolled around again, the year went fast, I can't believe the person who sent me roses last time still never told me who they were. I'm a little sad! I really hoped I would find out at least a few months down the line, but I guess its not meant to be. The more time passes since it happened, the more hope I lose of ever finding out. If I get anything this year, I'm not gonna tell anyone about it. I'm gonna stop talking about this now. Pancake day after that, goddamn I love pancake day! I love pancakes, but they day really reminds me of my grandad, he used to make the best pancakes ever for me, I would always sit at their big old rectangle dining table, and he would bring me in pancake after pancake as he made them, I would eat them with golden syrup and lemon juice, every time without fail. Aw. Those were good days. Birthdays, valentines and pancakes, definitely a nice combination of things.
Its raining outside, it feels like its been raining all day, but mostly its just been raining since the afternoon. I hope it stops by tomorrow, though if not I'll have a good excuse to wear the jacket my cousin gave me for Christmas, that has a gigantic furry hood. Ha! Screw you rain.
I got my own library card the other week, I haven't had one since I was a kid, every time I went with my mam recently, if I seen anything I wanted, she would just get it out for me. In the end I decided I might as well get my own. Its really cool and has a picture of Stockton festival on the front which is ace, its of a woman dressed in white in a really big hoop skirt, swinging around on what looks like a pole vaulting pole. Imagine if it had been the Belgian acrobats though, I would have definitely taken that as a sign and done something about my crush on him. (p.s http://www.lamaisonducirque.be/fr/repertory/95/VANDERLINDEN-Jokke&letter=V )
I know I'm getting totally repetitive with this now, I'm like a broken record. I'll shut up about him for good now, promise.
SO anyway, while I was at the library the other day, I got out "The bell jar", It was a bit of a fluke really, I was wandering around waiting for my mam to finish, and it was one of the only books I seen that I recognised, so I figured that with it being well known, It might be pretty good. I'm upto chapter 10 or 11, I can't remember which, but I do quite like it so far. Next time I'm at the library I'm gonna just pick a book at random, its silly only going for ones I've heard of, I'm not gonna find hidden gems doing it that way am I? I'm looking forward to finishing it anyway, I'm curious as to what happens.
Writing (typing) a blog again doesn't feel that weird, considering its been a long time. Maybe it just feels longer than it has been. Also I just discovered the other day that I have my first follower! Exciting, thankyou for following me!
I just left the blog for ages cause I just couldn't be arsed to write one, and I couldn't think of anything to write about. I suppose I just wasn't in the mood, and you've kind of got to be, to write. Actually I think that's just me, I have moods where I really want to do things, then after doing a block of it, I get bored and move onto something else. That's what happened with the papercutting I was doing, I actually did loads a few weeks ago, loads of little cuttings and stuff, but after exhausting it, I haven't done it since. I think that basically sums up ME. Maybe that's why my life is such a higgle piggle, in parts, e.g, a career. If only there were a job I could do, that was something completely different every few months? That's why I didn't go to uni, I reckon. I could never commit to studying one thing for however many years, cause When I finish, I would probably want to do something else different altogether!
ohh but oh well. If everything in my life fails, I'll go to one of my dreams jobs, cleaning sky scraper windows in New York.
P.s, I forgot to add, I booked my hairdresser appointment today, Im getting my fringe back on friday, whoohoo!
6 comments:
Stockton's actually an hour away? I never knew. And I don't really get Facebook hunting - tell you what - right now I'll go to facebook and type "Bianca" into the search bar...aaaand no...you're definitely not any of those people. Give me a clue to go on. It can be like a trail of e-breadcrumbs.
In other news I got offered a job and my ex-girlfriend keeps inventing reasons to ring me. Ergggghhhhhh.
Hope your fringe works out okay - I'm heading to bulletproof again this weekend. Had my hair cut slightly though so may've lost some of my indie credibility.
And also obviously I still read your blog. It's a ray of sunshine in my otherwise confusing and cloudy day.xx
Yahuh an hour it is, I always see the newcastle bus driving out of stockton, taunting me haha.
Ooh so whats yr new job offer? The invented reasons sound amusing, I reckon you should just start answering your phone in a very strong french accent, that'll throw her off. Actually french is pretty hot, maybe try german.
Haha hope your cred is still intact, you can always get a top hat if you think you've lost some. Im still coming to terms with the fringe, though the hairdresser saying I looked "about 11" as she was cutting didn't really fill me with confidence. Im getting used to it though.
Mmm Im not quite smart enough to riddle you my facebook, my username is my full name, with three numbers at the end, the numbers add up to 6. I hope thats breadcrumby enough!
You should definitely come to Newcastle at some point - it's pretty tiring to live here though! I'm doing international marketing - it's a pretty incredible job - I might have to fly to New York at the end of March?
And your name's Bianca Brown right? I clicked on your blue name link just then...but still...if we become facebook friends you've got to keep it a secret so I don't get abusive hate messages from the other anonymouses.xx
p.s did you get roses on valentines?xx
Woah, NY, that does sound like an ace job.
Yess thats me, im a BB. I will try my best to keep it a secret, if you get any abuse I will step in and kick some ass. Ehh not sure if I can get away with saying that phrase hahaohhh well.
I actually got more than one Valentine suprise, though one did arrive a few days after the 14th, but I think it still sort of counts. (I think) How about you, were you showered with gifts?
I think Bianca and this James fellow should get it on. Is James the same boy as 'Anonymous boy' ? x
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