not with a bang but a whimper

I lay my head down on his chest and cried because had lived
because he had died
a dry ocean, a desert of emotion
happysad darklight sorrowjoy swept over me, under me
I could hear the sound but I could not understand the words
and then I realized the sound was me, breaking
in one moment I was feeling everything and I was feeling nothing
I was shattered, I was saved, I lost everything, I was given everything else
something in me died, something in me was born, I only knew
the girl was gone
whoever I was now, I would never be her again

this is the way
the world ends not with a bang but a whimper